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It has been much to long and way past due for a post here.  I keep trying to send pictures and little uplifting quotes I find but it's not as nice as the words...  I don't even know where I left off to be perfectly honest.  I am trying to get through this school year, lot's of teaching issues this year makes me just want to put first grade behind us, and I hate that, but I am looking forward to a great summer and a better school year.  I feel responsible because I have really let some lack of teaching on my son's part go and now we are going to spend much of our summer playing catch up on reading skills and reading in general.  BUT, there is nothing like a good book, right?

I really have started to be concerned with my lack of focus, and I have felt a need to tackle this issue within myself because it is so frustrating, and I guess with age I see so many areas in my life that it has effected and I never realized it.  I know that I have ADD, but in my time, that was called a daydreamer, and that's what I can do, I can't finish tasks, I can't stay focused, my attention span is very short and I start speaking the words verbally when the first half of the conversation took place in my head, leaving the other person asking "what?"...

I say that I see where it has really made an impact now because my husband told me something that kinda shook me...  he asked about something and I told him I hadn't done it and he said 'I really count on you to handle that stuff."  and for some reason, even though I know this, it kinda slapped me into reality and it's like something in my mind clicked and I started looking around at all the things my family does count on me for and I feel like a failure, because I get so overwhelmed I can't move.  I look at tasks that need to be done and I have no clue where to start, I move things from here to there but have no focus...  It is really a problem, one that I need to work on and I am.

I don't want to look back and wish I had done something differently, I want to do it differently now.  We'll see where this goes, but it will definitely go somewhere...

Have a Blessed day, and stay tuned!