Do you know how you can just hustle and bustle through life until something happens, and it makes everything you have been hustling and bustling to do seem so very insignificant. Ya, well today I had one of those moments.
I had one major concern (yes, other than TJ's cancer) that had been weighing on me... And by God's Grace he has fixed that for me... but regardless of this blessing, I am still having my panic attacks at night, still even though I force myself to focus on this cancer journey as just a bump in the road. We're gonna get past this and life will be normal again.
So what the heck is my problem... I can say it... I have lost perspective of things... My stomach has been hurting, and not a tummy ache kinda hurt, something not right kinda hurt, and it honestly scared me, because all I could think of was... this could be something bad, because I have seen those aches turn into something that has taken a loved ones life or sent another one down an unknown road... But this is life, right?
We lose sight of the most important things, we forget how our actions affect others. If someone is late to an appointment they may think they are just late, but they make everyones appointment just a little later because of that... What if you were the one sitting in the waiting room of a cancer doctor waiting for news... you increased the length of time, of worry for them...
What if you are running late for an appointment and are distracted and have a fender bender or worse, you have changed someone else's life because of your lack of planning...
What if you have that person that you have been 'meaning to call' and you never find the time, and the next time you hear their name it's to let you know they have passed away.
Slow down, put things in perspective...
My husband wore his last pair of clean underwear today, may sound stupid and trivial to you, but it made me feel like a horrible wife...
But... he did have a clean pair... I guess it's all about perspective....
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