Faith

How do you know that you have faith? When pretty bad things happen that should completely paralyze you, and they don’t…because you know that your Jesus is bigger than all of that. How do you know that Jesus is there, because an overwhelming sense of calmness holds you still, holds you up…and wraps around you. God will continue to reveal places that he feels you need to give a little ‘attention’ to, through trials, chaos, hardships…but amidst all of those he remains…ALWAYS, by your side, guiding you, holding you and wrapping you in his never ending love.

Don’t ever take the things of this world for granted, in a moment, what you think your life is can be changed. By a phone call, a wrong turn, a bad choice a spoken word… So be careful, that the things you encounter in life are not things that you could have prevented, make choices that make God smile, do things knowing he is watching you and with you, don’t live in a way that would make you ashamed to have him at your side…because he goes with us everywhere, sees everything and knows all… There is no fooling him.

Sometimes I look back on things I have done, or said, even caused and I am so very ashamed and embarrassed that my heavenly Father was a witness to it. But the reality is, that he was, and he wept…and he cried…and he hurt… all because of me. Yet he remained there waiting, for me to turn back to him, his arms always open, his love as strong as ever…

I am a sinner, I sin every day of my life, in my thoughts, in my words and sometimes even in my actions….but I KNOW that I am a sinner and I try so hard to be all that my Jesus would want me to be. I try even more now than ever to live right knowing that to my son…I AM JESUS, he is watching me, wanting to be more like me…I have to try to be someone that I would want him to be… just like Jesus. I know I can’t be perfect, no one but HIM can be, but I can try my best to be better….

So I try every day to live better so that at the end of the day, when I lay my head down and drift off to sleep, I feel so good, knowing he is looking at me and he is smiling.

You Can Have…All This World…Just Give Me Jesus….

...when you gotta go...

Oh, the joys of motherhood…

…as much as I try to avoid it, it almost never fails, we are in the middle of a store, and I have got to go… Johnny tells me I am worse than a kid, and I am beginning to think he is right. and just like a kid…when I gotta go, I gotta go, which usually means – I have to take my son with me. So, now that he is pretty vocal, as anyone that has a 4 year old knows, it is not a good experience…

Noah: Mom, I will wait out here
Me: No, you have to come in with me, I don’t want someone to take you
Noah: Are we in the girls restroom?
Me: No, this is the family restroom Noah (I have convinced him, for a while at least that the wheelchair symbol on the door means ‘family’ restroom)
Noah: then how come there are only girls in here
Me: because they are the only ones that need to go to the restroom right now…stop playing with the lock – do NOT open that door (I have already been exposed, thanks to my son, at the McDonalds playground, Ryans and the Laundreymat)
Noah: I’m not… are you pooping?
Me: be quite Noah
Noah: you are pooping mom, it stinks
I flush the toilet and give him a dirty look
Noah: DON’T FLUSH IT, it’s too loud
Me: be quite Noah
Noah: Does your stomach hurt
Me: can you just be quite
Noah: Remember, don’t push…
Of course he remembers everything I tell him at the WRONG time…I hear laughing from the sink area
Me: Hush Noah
Noah: Your always pooping Mommy, don’t fart…
Sometimes… I really hate my life….

Just when you think....

A few months ago my husband was offered the opportunity to be the Director of a new clinic that was going to open here in Seguin. He had been trying the home health and was enjoying it but with one downfall, some weeks were good, some weeks slow…the flexibility was great, it was the stability that was taking getting used to. So when this offer came in, it was a chance to try to build something from the ground up and I was excited for him to have the opportunity (not to mention a guaranteed income). He was excited, I was excited for him…and so the journey for him started, he went outside his comfort zone and did Marketing, luncheons, contracted therapists and still continued to do patient care…he was the whole enchilada, director, therapist, marketing, office manager and scheduler. Every time a new doctor sent him a patient we got excited and things were slowly but surely picking up, but…this big city company didn’t expect to have such a challenge getting patients, they were used to the fast paced Houston market and Johnny told them from the get go the challenges they would be facing…yesterday they decided it was a little more than they wanted to deal with and have decided to pull out of Seguin. I am so proud of my husband for all the hard work he did trying to get this clinic off the ground, he tackled all the new challenges and was awesome, I can’t help but feel bad that the numbers they were expecting weren’t going to happen as quickly as they had wanted, but I know for a fact that Johnny gave it his all and for that, I am so very proud of him… He took a chance on something and I wish that I could be that brave but I know I couldn’t be. I also know that all the experience he has gained is going to lead him to bigger and better things. Noah and I tell him all the time what a great guy he is and how lucky we are to have him… I don’t know where this next road is taking our family, but I feel sure that wherever it is, as long as we are together…it’s all good.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

JESUS I TRUST IN YOU….