Sweet

 

It is so surreal to see these two all grown up, but they are...  and to know how different life is now

So sweet....  I absolutely adore the love these two share.

I can still hear Jay when she was 5 years old scolding her parents for correcting TJ.

"Don't yell at my brother!!!"

...and that is how it has been their whole lives.

And away we go :)

Today was an ordinary day, just the same as most days...

I woke up...  believe it or not I dragged myself out of bed at 6 a.m.  I am not sure what has happened to me, I used to get up at 5:30 every morning and I just can't seem to do it anymore...  Maybe it's age, or maybe it's the fact that I am absolutely in love with my bed, or maybe it's that snuggling with my little honey is my absolute favorite thing to do (don't judge, I'm not ready to let him sleep in his own room and neither is he LOL), or maybe it's that I wake up feeling panicky and worry worry worry and just when I catch a restful sleep (usually because I am exhausted from thinking so much) that blasted alarm sounds and my head screams NOOOOOOO!  And I grab it, praying that it is a mistake, that it went off at the wrong time and I actually still have 3 hours more to sleep.... NOT (A girl can dream, right?)

I got up today, because I was so excited because today was gamer day at school, Noah's school that is!  Why was I excited you ask?!  Because it meant that my Lil Honey wasn't going to be grumbling under his breath when I tried to wake him...  oh no, not today because HELLO, it was gamer day and he got to take his Nintendo DS to school as an award for good behavior (God bless the person that came up with the good behavior award days) 

I wasn't even upset about having to go and buy yet ANOTHER charger for his DS so it would be ready to go today, I wasn't even upset that I had to go to THREE different stores to find one at 9:30 last night, nope...  why you ask again!  BECAUSE Noah was going to pop out of bed with the first call rather than 15 minutes of coaxing, pleading, begging and finally a reminder that he had 10 minutes to get dressed... 

He was ready and we were out the door at 7:32, a true Sauceda miracle since we usually pull out of the driveway, tying shoes in the car at 7:46...  good thing we only live three blocks from the school... 

In the middle of all this I am frantically calling the Rooster (my mother in law) because she has to be at the hospital for a test at 8 a.m., which I laughed about all week because she HATES morning appointments and I knew she was dreading getting up for it...  of course she wasn't answering which is why we were out of the house at 7:32 so I could go and get her up and be at the hospital by 8...  The joke was definitely on me because I was kicking myself I was so sleepy I just couldn't wake up.  (which explains why I didn't realize that I had not brushed my hair until we were leaving the hospital)  The rooster was still in bed when I got to her apartment, which leads to the SECOND Sauceda miracle, I got her up, she got dressed and we were at the hospital sitting in the waiting room at 8:02...  another act of God...  I'm sure we were a sight...

Took the Rooster to eat after the appt., dropped her off, went home and cleaned the kennel pulled it in the house and put Bella in it before the rain hit...

Then I went, picked up my Mom and took her to her appointment, set her hair appointment, made sure my brother would be in town to take her, picked her lunch up, deposited her and her lunch back at her house...  went and dropped off tickets for TJ's fundraiser and grabbed lunch for me and made it to work at 1 with bells on (and brushed hair)... 

My life is crazy and full, and I wouldn't have it any other way...

And we're off to the coast to find that.  Unfortunately packing and trying to leave takes us to that stressful place to get to the relaxing place.  Looking forward to the beach, great friends and to finally seey Godsons new home, we just wish the pool was ready... Sigh

It's Dela Wela punch!!!!

A visit from Lucy the therapy dog...

Pilgrimage

 

The Basilica at San Juan Del Valle

 

We FINALLY made our New Year pilgrimage to San Juan, went this past weekend, the long road trip didn't seem as bad this time but I sure am pooped from the trip.

A little beauty

The courtyard area at St. David's Hospital in Austin...

 

 

Is quite beautiful, a squirrel came right up to my table and sat right by my plate and watched me eat breakfast...

 

I'm here at the hospital with TJ as he gets his week long chemo, this beautiful grotto in the courtyard is a wonderful peaceful place, it has been a long three days but I am so grateful to have this time with him...

I would have really liked to bring TJ out here for a little bit but he was not feeling well...

It's hard to stay positive when you see the same for walls for five days in a row, I keep thinking, 8 more week long stays...  it seems like an eternity, can't even imagine how he feels.

My poor sweet guy, praying for peace and healing for our guy...

Messy Messy Marla

If I could describe myself in one word, today it would be MESSY...

 

 

Messy Messy Marla, Messy Marla's Manic Musings...  Messy Marla is Magnificent...  Yes, that's it, she is completely messy and even more completely MAGNIFICENT... 

 

MESSY MARLA IS MAGNIFICENT ....so,

this is

MESSY MARLA'S MAGNIFICENT MAY...

 

• Mother's day - I am so excited because I have been planning all year to get my sisters, mom and mother in law lockets with pics of Noah in them for Mother's day - MAGNIFICENT!
• School's last month - I want to give a very special gift to Noah's teacher Mrs. Cantu, she has made Noah's first year in public school a smooth transition for Messy Mommy Marla, I adore her and she is an absolute blessing to me and I can't wait to put something together for her to show that.
• Baseball countdown - my baby had a great coach and great season this year, thank you Jesus, no injuries, I loved the team he was on this year, but mostly I am grateful for the love and friendship of the Molina family who Noah has been with for the past three years, they are why I look forward to baseball season...
• Summer Fun 2013 - Our whole family (friends included) focus for every year is our annual Coast Trip in the summer, and this year is no exception...  We pic a theme song and a motto for every season...  most times neither is appropriate, but it's fun...  With everything that has gone on this year, I feel the need to focus on this happy time even more...  Coast trip 2013... ya baby!  For that week, time seems to lose numbers and we just enjoy being...
• Fun in the Sun-first year my family is getting Schlitterbahn season passes, I look forward to being a pretty dark shade of coco by the time school starts again.
• Projects - should I even say it...  refurbish yard furniture, replant plants and of course...  wait for it, wait for it......  ORGANIZE MY HOUSE....  there, I said it...  (teehee) 

 

That's a lot, stay focused MESSY MAGNIFICENT MARLA!

Perspective

 

Do you know how you can just hustle and bustle through life until something happens, and it makes everything you have been hustling and bustling to do seem so very insignificant.  Ya, well today I had one of those moments.

 

I had one major concern (yes, other than TJ's cancer) that had been weighing on me...  And by God's Grace he has fixed that for me...  but regardless of this blessing, I am still having my panic attacks at night, still even though I force myself to focus on this cancer journey as just a bump in the road.  We're gonna get past this and life will be normal again.

 

So what the heck is my problem...  I can say it...  I have lost perspective of things...  My stomach has been hurting, and not a tummy ache kinda hurt, something not right kinda hurt, and it honestly scared me, because all I could think of was...  this could be something bad, because I have seen those aches turn into something that has taken a loved ones life or sent another one down an unknown road...  But this is life, right?

 

We lose sight of the most important things, we forget how our actions affect others.  If someone is late to an appointment they may think they are just late, but they make everyones appointment just a little later because of that...  What if you were the one sitting in the waiting room of a cancer doctor waiting for news...  you increased the length of time, of worry for them...

 

What if you are running late for an appointment and are distracted and have a fender bender or worse, you have changed someone else's life because of your lack of planning...

 

What if you have that person that you have been 'meaning to call' and you never find the time, and the next time you hear their name it's to let you know they have passed away.

 

Slow down, put things in perspective... 

 

My husband wore his last pair of clean underwear today, may sound stupid and trivial to you, but it made me feel like a horrible wife...

 

But... he did have a clean pair... I guess it's all about perspective....