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It's time!

I can keep hearing that line over and over again in my head 'it's time, Daddy, it's time"  from Steel Magnolia's when it is time to walk down the aisle...

 

But for me it's time it's time... is Festival time!  yippee kay yay yo! so very happy about that and so very greatful that it is time! 

 

Please join us, for lot's of fun!

 

St. James Catholic Church Fall Festival

Seguin Events Center

Saturday, September 24

5pm-12 midnight

BBQ Rib Cookoff, Salsa Contest and Bakeoff

Great food: Turkey Legs, Sausage on a Stick, Hamburgers, Tacos, Nachos, Frito Pies

Games, Moonbounces and Train...  Bingo, volleyball tournament (Registration begins at 430 at vball complex)

Live Music in Gazebo

Sunday, September 25

11 am- 6 pm

Great food: Turkey Legs, Sausage on a Stick, Hamburgers, Tacos, Nachos, Frito Pies

Games, Moonbounces and Train...  Bingo, volleyball tournament

Bar-B-Que Chicken plate sale, Live and Silent Auction, Cake Walk

Face Painting, Cookie decorating, country store

Live Music in Gazebo

Hope to see you There!!!

Drove all the way to Killeen for Noah's football game, long but good day, and they wonGo #61

Gotta love small towns! Homecoming parade, go Mats!!!

It's my Friday!

So excited because today is my Friday and me and my monkey have a three day weekend coming up, but he is coming home sick from school so THAT is not good, hopefully it is just a little bug and he'll feel better this afternoon. 

I have been super busy finalizing things up for the festival and I was on the phone for quite some time last night trying to sign up volunteers to work shifts and I still have a long way to go to fill up my list...  yikes....  it will all come together, I have no doubt....  I am feeling so ready for fall, this is my favorite time of year and I want to put all this stress behind me and get my house ready for the holidays, hopefully...

Crosses

Our lives, once again have been crazy busy.  This past weekend, has been especially so.  I am really struggling because I am feeling like I might have brought it on myself, which I know I shouldn't.  It's kind of odd as a matter of fact, because while we were waiting, which we did a LOT of the movie Benjamin Button was on, and it seems like even though I have never watched the movie completely, when I do see a part of it, it is almost the same part...  I have never seen the whole movie, so I don't really know what it is about, but the part I have seen is where the girl he is infatuated with gets hit by a car and it ends up ending her hopes of a dancing career...  but it goes back in time through the sequence of events that led to that point, if this lady hadn't forgotten to pick up a gift and made the Taxi driver stop, if the girl at the gift shop hadn't broken up with her boyfriend the night before and had gotten to work on time and had the gift ready to go and not delayed the lady, etc., etc., you get the idea... 

Well, Friday was Grandparents Mass at Noah's school and you would think this would be a fun time, but for me, even though I love the special things like that, it isn't.  Both of Noah's Grandma's require a lot of effort to get them anywhere, and everytime there is something like this I am stressed, full of anxiety and can't even enjoy being there because I am busy getting them there and making sure they are seated so my focus isn't even on Noah, I know this sounds horrible and selfish but I am just being very honest, and the stress of knowing it is coming up is just as bad.  Well this year they decided to do a reception with ice cream on the playground.... really? My mother in law is legally blind so she can't walk well and certainly isn't going to stand long and my mom is 80 years old with Dementia and most times can be confused just getting her one place and is unstable as well, so I have to get them both to mass at 8 am which means leaving the house to pick them up by 715 because they have to be seated in the church before there might not be a seat and that whole process is enough to send me into an anxiety attack, the thought of maneuvering them to the playground for a reception is not exactly the best scenerio, yes, think what you want but I've just gotten to the point where it is much easier to NOT do these things but I also don't want my son to miss out on having a grandparent there.  So, I opted to not even mention it, which leads me to where I am now that Noah's other Grandma called him the night before and he told her about it so of course I had to tell her the details and she said she wanted to go, hence the GUILT for not telling my Mom which is unavoidable because there was no way she was going to go without having her hair done the day before, well his Grandma ended up falling while getting ready that morning, which led to our entire weekend at hospitals, two fractures to her neck, follow-up doctor visits and me adding more to my plate which runneth over and over and over and over....  and all because of Grandparents day mass....  or at least that's how I feel.  Am I a horrible person?  No, I know that, because I go above and beyond for my family and have been there for my Mom so much of my life but it seems like in the last few years I am getting to where I don't want to anymore, now that I have my son I want to be carefree and let things be about us, is that horrible?  Some might think so, but I know between God and I he understands my heart, and he also knows despite my frustration and worries I will always do the right thing, I just hate that my heart isn't in it most times...

Sometimes

Sometimes you hold back on things because you don't think it is either right or worth sharing, and sometimes things happen in your life and at that very moment you think, I know I should share that and sometimes you hold back because you don't want people to know that side of you or you aren't sure how it will sound or even worse.... "what would they think"  BUT sometimes or most times we should say we are who we are and be just that....
I think I tend to hold back on my blog postings for a lot of different 'sometimes'.
I like to laugh and cut up, I also like to pray and talk to God, and sometimes I can say very inappropriate things (gasp) and most times I laugh at it...  (And I know God has a sense of humor... because of my nappy hair of course) I can pray ferverently to God for his guidance and love the Rosary and spending time in adoration but I also have my dark side where I can curse like a truck driver but still be a lady (give me a break, I worked most of my life with men).  I am also very girly but I have put worms on a fish hook but LOVE tutu's and pink anything...  I guess what I am saying there is a wide spectrum to who I am and the people in my life, I can blend in to most any setting but I can detect a person who isn't what they are pretty quick and tend to shy away from them (or run, it's just to exhausting and I am not a very good actress, okay, unless I must be)... 
I guess what I am saying, in way too many words is that, I am not gonna hold back as much as I have before because SOMETIMES, that makes me lose a little bit of the shine of who I am...  so, things are gonna be blogged a little bit more openly, put on your seatbelts, take a xanax, love me anyway and most importantly, just hit the little x and poof, the window will be closed...
Peace and Love my friends....

Rides and fun stuff!

Having fun at the church festival !

Noah's first scrimmage!