Merry Christmas...

Tis the season, and it's only just begun!  It has been pretty hectic (as usual) around here, Christmas day has come and gone but we have just begun celebrating the 12 days of Christmas...
My mind has been adrift very much these days to the worries on my heart that should be in God's hands, and I have felt pretty down...  but...  I know I shouldn't be, we are, afterall, celebrating Jesus' birth... AMEN.  Lord I cast my worries upon you, I know you have been waiting.  Looking forward to a wonder-filled 2012...  AMEN, AMEN, and AMEN....

Tag Alongs...

We went to work with Daddy and had our own fun ...  inspecting the landscape at UIW

Stopped to put gas and ride a horse...

Can you see all the birdies in this bush?

Long day at the office earns a nice warm bubble bath...

too cute!

Where were we on Christmas day after the smoke cleared and all was quite in our house, at IHOP for some Hot Chocolate!

I've been so good Santa!

Love this cute elf!

Practice makes perfect

Can you see my little Longhorn Jersey on stage practicing for his Christmas program...  Love this guy!

And here is my handsome guy all set to go!

Tick Tock goes the Clock

Maybe it's because I am a mom, that feeling like we go 100 mph 24/7 is just part of life, but really, I don't think people have a CLUE what goes in to being a wife/mother...  and I know this because there are many times, when I am asked to do one more thing I am usually thinking ...  really?

So here's my new idea, that I will do as often as I can remember so that maybe, just maybe if a man reads this blog he will think, hey, maybe I DON'T have a clue...

So far today I have,

• Made breakfast
• Finished my husbands time sheets, copied them, taken them to be faxed and went to the post office to mail the originals.
• Ironed my sons clothes for school.
• Wrapped three teacher gifts and attached cards
• Picked up lunch for my son and niece and went to school to eat with them.
• Called in the new insurance information for my husbands meds to the pharmacy, called back to make sure it went through and will soon be on my way to pick them up.
• Called my mother in law's podiatrist to see if there was anyway they could see her today.
• Called the hospital to find out if there was a wound care clinic bc the doctor couldnt see her.
• Begged my brother in law to pick up my mother in laws layaway so that I didn't have to wait in line for it on my BDAY!
• Fed the dog and have taken him out 3 times.
• Washed the breakfast dishes...

and did i mention it is only 2 pm...

Happy Birthday...

to me!!!  41....yikes, and these 40's are kicking my butt...

My little Salvation Army bell ringer!

....and the days fly by

Yesterday, I can honestly say I had a nuclear meltdown... Overwhelmed, worn down and tired... But my lovely Jesus must have whispered in my ear last night and feel refreshed, hopeful and at peace today. I fight constantly within myself because I get tired of feeling like always being a caregiver, taken care of everyone and everything else, feeling thankless, unappreciated and just not feeling joy... I can't even imagine how Jesus should have felt, but didn't because he expected so little, if anything, in return for ALWAYS loving and giving. Makes me feel pretty shameful when I have pity parties, and then to expect him to lift me up... Sorry Jesus... Yesterday Momo was pretty grouchy after coming out of surgery and of course I'm the one that gets it, but who wouldn't be, lying flat on her back for three days, just an iv, they brought her food in and everything in me wanted to run away because I didn't want to give anymore, I wanted to crawl into bed and pull the covers over my head. Selfish instead of selfless, all my list of everything I still needed to do running through my head and me in my stubbornness not wanting to make an effort to do anymore, I was done... But as much as I fight it, I know my ministry is my family and dying to my own needs, as hard as it is...is part of my calling. And in my heart of hearts, I know this, and I know that God will sustain me, and my blessings are MANY! Today please pray for health, everyones... Diabetics, cardiac patients, the blind, Alzheimers, asthma and dementia, these diseases have been so much of a battle for the people I love... Jesus, I trust in you!

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Dreary Tuesday

Well, as always.... Never a dull moment on the Sauceda front, we have been at hospitals the last few days with the Momo, she just got out of surgery with two new heart stints and a balloon, much to blog on but it shall have to wait, took a break from the hospital to bring Noah to eat then headed back, she should be out of recovery by then...

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Happy 80 wonderful years mom!!

Happy 80 wonderful years mom!!

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas.... and so much more

It has been cold, and the days are going to go by too quickly, because Christmas month is like that, we wait in anticipation then...  poof, it's over...
There has been a lot going on in our little family, but the foremost of which is some scary news for my husband, it seems his PSA level has more than tripled since his last check-up, PSA levels are checked because an elevated PSA can be an indicator for prostate cancer.  Yes, the dreaded "C" word.  What's more of a concern is Johnny's age, usually these levels don't rise until the 60's/70's age range...  Although his level is still under the "number" they use as a concern level, the number doubling in a year's time is not a good sign, Johnny's more than trippled. 
So that's where we are at, his doctor wants to wait one month to see how much more, if any, his level rises and then they will do a biopsy.  He feels certain that any cancer that is found can be taken care of with radiation and chemo can be avoided.  We are scared, we are worried but we must wait... and focus on better things to keep us going.  This is a blessed season, and I feel certain a blessing is coming our way.

Please keep us in your prayers...