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Okay, it is Tuesday, but it feels like another Monday…

First, I would like to wish Happy Mother’s Day to all the beautiful women out there. Even if you don’t have kids, everyone has been ‘Mothering’ someone at some point in their lives. Taking care of someone, being there for them, listening and praying for them. So I hope everyone had a wonderful Mother’s Day!

Last night I took Noah with me to Wal-mart, one of the things I HATE to do most because my son makes me miserable at the store (ya ya, I know, Happy Mother’s Day). Johnny gets mad because I have a hard time telling him no, and I am working on it. Honestly, I don’t think it is just about not being able to tell him no, I think that usually when we go to the store, by the time I get there I just don’t have any fight left in me. It is almost always at the end of the day, when I haven’t even been home to change from work clothes, and I already have a car full of stuff to unload and Johnny is at a meeting til whenever and I know that Noah still has to take his bath (which is a whole other battle) and my house is a wreck and I have 5 other things that HAVE to be done before tomorrow on top of everything I am taking more stuff home to unload to the car and I need to make sure I get everything I need on this trip so that hopefully I won’t have to come back to the store again this week and what am I making for supper the rest of the week and do I have everything I need at home to cook it and what do we have going on this week that I might need to get something we need for which would involve yet ANOTHER trip to the store and is it my week for snacks at school or for Noah’s tball game or practice and where the heck is his team shirt, I haven’t seen it and his game is Thursday and crap he needs black shorts which don’t really match his chocolate and yellow team shirt but who am I to question the team uniform …. and OMG I need to call that lady back about volunteering for teacher appreciation week (mental note to check with the school office to make sure I have all my ‘credits’ for volunteering) and I really should get a gift for Noah’s teachers ….have I pre-registered him for the summer session? Did I pay his pre-registration for next year? when is the field trip and how much do I need to send (mental note to get Noah’s stuff to pack his lunch)… see what I mean… and you want me to have to explain to a 4 year old that he can’t get something every time we go to the store on top of all this?!

To add to the stress of having to go to the store, one of my girlfriends at work told me at lunch today that her mother-in-law got held up at gunpoint in downtown, ummm, hello, aren’t we practically Mayberry, things like that don’t happen here! So now my new stress is that I have to get us in the car quickly before someone comes up to us and tries to rob us! I know I know, I am not well but jeez, it already happened so…yes, I am the crazy person you see opening the hatchback to her car before she gets there (love those auto-openers) and screaming at my son to get ready to get in and lock the door. throwing my bags in the back and hurrying to get in the car and lock the door and not caring where the shopping cart is as long as it is not behind my car. So if you see me hooking it out the door at Wal-mart or HEB, stand clear!

On the diet front, I lost 5.6 lbs last week, which is amazing considering I felt like I didn’t give it my all. There were two positive changes I made which for me is a huge step. The first being, everyone grab a tissue…. I gave up my morning breakfast taco… I am not going to lie, I was in a terrible mood by Wednesday last week and then it hit me, I was in mourning…my heart, was breaking… I missed… my taco. Before you jump on the wagon I know I can still have it, I even calculated the points ( 11 points for a potato, bacon and cheese taco with two slices of bacon), but honestly, I just felt like I had to go cold turkey or taco! ha ha, okay, that was pretty funny…. and the other positive change, I got rid of my mid afternoon bad snack (vending machine) and changed it to a healthy snack (fruit or skinny cow cheese on a flatbread cracker)… and I have stuck to it. And I lost 5.6 lbs, and actually my taco…I am over it… I know I can still have one every once in a while but I am just not ready to use that many points at the beginning of the day and as long as I can have something salty..i’m good. So good thing I love cheese toast! These changes might seem small, but they are HUGE for me. And even though we had to drag Cathy to the meeting practically kicking and screaming, she lost 2 lbs. too!