....and the days fly by

Yesterday, I can honestly say I had a nuclear meltdown... Overwhelmed, worn down and tired... But my lovely Jesus must have whispered in my ear last night and feel refreshed, hopeful and at peace today. I fight constantly within myself because I get tired of feeling like always being a caregiver, taken care of everyone and everything else, feeling thankless, unappreciated and just not feeling joy... I can't even imagine how Jesus should have felt, but didn't because he expected so little, if anything, in return for ALWAYS loving and giving. Makes me feel pretty shameful when I have pity parties, and then to expect him to lift me up... Sorry Jesus... Yesterday Momo was pretty grouchy after coming out of surgery and of course I'm the one that gets it, but who wouldn't be, lying flat on her back for three days, just an iv, they brought her food in and everything in me wanted to run away because I didn't want to give anymore, I wanted to crawl into bed and pull the covers over my head. Selfish instead of selfless, all my list of everything I still needed to do running through my head and me in my stubbornness not wanting to make an effort to do anymore, I was done... But as much as I fight it, I know my ministry is my family and dying to my own needs, as hard as it is...is part of my calling. And in my heart of hearts, I know this, and I know that God will sustain me, and my blessings are MANY! Today please pray for health, everyones... Diabetics, cardiac patients, the blind, Alzheimers, asthma and dementia, these diseases have been so much of a battle for the people I love... Jesus, I trust in you!

Sent from my iPhone