Mother Teresa once said: "Everybody today seems to be in such a terrible rush, anxious for greater developments and greater wishes and so on; so that children have very little time for the parents, parents have little time for each other, and in the home begins the disruption of the peace of the world."
Today, let’s slow it down…
Last night I was in a grumpy mood… seriously… and Johnny asked if I wanted to go for a walk, I had already been outside a good part of the day at Noah’s school water day, it was hot, my house was a mess and I was not in a good mood… “No…I don’t want to” I got off the car and went into the house to surround myself by my negative feelings… I have been feeling grumpy a lot the last few days. I heard Johnny telling Noah to come outside so they could play Crochet… I saw them through the window setting up the game and I felt horrible for having a pitty party for no particular reason other than the fact that my house was in chaos and I never seemed to find the time to get the beast under control.
It is sad that we can get so caught up in the unimportant details of life that we totally ruin or miss out on what’s important. I went outside to watch them play and try to shake it off a bit. I had just told Johnny at dinner that I felt like the devil was dancing around picking at me and I needed to get back to my prayer life which I felt I had been neglecting. I don’t feel good that we haven’t been tithing like I feel we should at church, I feel the need so often to do so much more than I already am. I know Johnny thinks I am crazy sometimes because I always have these grand thoughts of how to make a difference here, we need to volunteer here, we need to serve here, we need to give more to this or that… this person needs help, this needs to be done we have to do MORE MORE MORE! And I truly feel called to that, but there are so many things that need to be done my head goes crazy thinking, where do I start? Which gets me back to my neglected prayer life… I completely trust that God has a plan for me and my life and I need to let him guide me, I have to open my heart and my mind to be HIS hands and feet and do his work. I want my son and my husband to do the same… I entrust my family to something much greater… God’s will for us and I know great things are coming! What has God placed on your heart? What can you let go of so that you can do more? God is calling me, he is calling you… I just got a call (really) from church to let me know that I got into Fr. Dennis’ bible study that was full, I am so excited and I truly believe God told me “come spend time with me”… I am pretty excited… What is my first project going to be, I trust he will place it before me… and I have decided that I don’t really need any more clothes right now, I am going to go today and cancel the layaway that is ready to get taken out and take that money and put it aside for someone that needs a new outfit for school next year. I don’t know who it will be, but I am sure God will send them my way…
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